Ray of light from the poet Jess

For the Lost and Fallen Heroes

2008-09-12T01:35:00.018+02:00

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«´¯`•.¸¸. © For the Lost and Fallen Heroes © .¸.•´¯`»

Who would you have been today
if life had treated you differently?

It doesnt matter anymore, you replied...
- Im buying my life...

But you never cashed in the ticket, to your lifes leading role
instead you planned in secret to leave the maincharacter behind.

You where trying too, whilst in the creation of the new
get the possibility, to put to sleep and bury the old

When you now wander in the shadow of death...
Whos staff will lead me away from fear?

I wanna paint a warrior mask with black symbols
in a rebellious grafitti on my scared skin
strong signals in the tunnel of life where we meet
we who searching and lost are the nights watchmen

In the depressions heated, dark storm we seek salvation
but cannot alone find a home to reach rescue and peace

Apatheticly the routines fill up our meaningless existance
meanwhile the anxiety are flirting with the grim reaper.

A hanged man will protest no more
he falls as the autumnleaves from the tree
lifeless and emtptied on nourishments and power
but the message reaches us with explosive force

A drowned soul are silenced when it sinks
as the sharp claws of sufferings squeezes out all blood
but the scream of terror still echos in our nightmares

Sometimes the treasurehunt dont seduce an old pirate anymore
no songs of heaven relieved when you searched for comfort

and in the chambers of my heart whisper the echos of my questions
since the answer where buried with my dead hope in sacred ground

What is holy... when we all loose in a hopeless battle...?

Your lost soul searched for an exit from the halls of anguish
whipped by a demanding master you fled the shackles of flesh

away from the horrors as the slave undes the senses
tortured, tormented and stalked by traumatic memories..

But your words of love on fading sheets will never be silenced
they shine solid towards me with script in fire from your inner light
they witness about a heroes battle, where a Lionheart conquered fell

I want to engrave in stone with my wild blood
carve runes, sketch the charachter that was you
anthems, about your beautiful beloved warriorsoul

I dont wanna meet the silence by your grave
where your name only mentions death

Some people live forever
and their roots are buried deep
their fruit sow seeds to new springblossom

For even that which is broken down and whithered
are the elements for new torches to light up

Even in the desert, in the mist over lifeless fields
the earth give birth to reincarnated life and new harvest

Our sorrow will let the healing rain fall down
tears ,over broken lips hymns, in grief and woe
water new spirits and life to shimmering dawn

In the treetops where the leaved crowns whisper verses
the sounds carries your hearts last precious words:
that we shall not take over and carry your pain -
since you have let go of it and are free now...

I will carry the fire high towards the sky
climb mountains and light up the beacon
drill glow, down deep into the underworld

I will pray to the spirits for guidance, to the divine and hednic deities
seek counsil, reach enlightenment,
so that we, together, can build lighthouses
and in Love manifest the Light, at the end of the dark tunnel...

© copyright Jessica Sunnely
October 2006

Sensual Serpent of Desire

2008-09-11T06:23:00.005+02:00

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BACK TO THE RIVERS OF BELIEF - ENIGMA

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~ Sensual Serpent of Desire ~

There they are -
standing in line.. waiting for a bite of me..
theire eyes penetrate me,
their lips are sucking me in..

Looking for the opening, to get in..
they are drawn.. drawn to me..
Wanna taste.. feel.. experience..
be filled or fill, by me, with me, of me..

Hunger.. sorrow.. desires.. longing..
emptiness.. Oh Your holiness..

You run away from me, you fence me in,
you adore me, you try to own me..

Fantasise.. singing hymns,
whispering secrets, confession of flesh,
confessions of the Soul..
seeking forgiveness, seeking answers..

You wanna label me..

you think you know me.. rule over me..
I let you... I see you... I know you.. I forgive you..

Madam, mademoiselle and monsieur - Enchente!
So nice to see you, dont be afraid....
lets explore this together..

We divide ourselves into camps, playing hide and seek -
sometimes you are on top, sometimes I am under,
looking up, face down, humble, arrogant, exploring..

Breath me, breath me deeply... hold me near..

You let me slip away at times..

Im in your darkness, Im in your light, Im in you..
Im your shame, your tears, your joy and pleasure..

You feel me through pain,
through seasons of experiences,
when you grow, when you shrink,
when you lie, and in your truth..

Im am whipping you bloody,
Im in your blood, in your dreams..
Breath me... breath me fully - let me blossom..

Ive escaped your attempts to destroy me, you cannot..
You call me the devil, you call me God... You call me..

I am with you forever, in sickness and in health..

You seek me in others, trying to kill it in them -
push it down under a blanket, you poison me..
yet you know Im the most sensual experience you seek..

I lick you dry after the rain, I make you shiver in the sun,
Im the shadow, and the glow during the storm..

You breath me, breath me.. with passion..

You think you are alone.. but I am with you..

I am LIFE... Taste me...

*
© Jessica Sunnely ~ Feb 5, 2008

~ KUNDALINI ~

Kundalini (kuṇḍalinî कुण्डलिनी)
according to various teachings
is a type of "corporeal energy"

Kundalini in Sanskrit literally means "coiled up".
Kundalini is envisioned as a serpent coiled at the base of the spine,
hence a number of English renderings
of the term such as 'serpent power'.

The Wind of Freedom

2008-09-11T03:41:00.020+02:00

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NOW COMES THE NIGHT - Rob Thomas

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I wrote this poem when I was 13 years old,

living in my 3rd fosterhome. I grew up in hell,

but always felt the protection and closeness

from a Guardian Angel - who saved me..

~ The Wind of Freedom ~

Why is everyone playing with my emotions
and take advantage of me,
and then dont realise that I am serious?

They tear and pull me
as if I was a worthless marionette.

A marionette that cant hide from the critics reviews

All that are playing judges and gives me verdicts

All that are playing wise men and teach me wise words

All the strings that are tied to my ankle joints and wrists
are tied so hard I cant break away..

The strings they are using to control me, to rule over me.

That is the easiest way
to get me to dance when they whistled -
by plugging me into their system

They tear and pull me, I am sore..

It isnt my voice that speak,
it isnt my words that comes out of my mouth..

I am beeing taught what to say before I enter the stage.
And cover all my anxiety, fear and insecurity
behind all the theatrical make-up
*
All the fake smiles..

Who are actors and whose the audience?
Which are which?
Do they even know themselves who they are?

Or are they just acting..

*

Is there anyone that doesnt want to influence me?
Drill me into another character after this act is over?

If there is someone
I would like to crawl up in to this persons arms
and let me be stroked to sleep, to peace..

In my insecurity I want to both give and take.
Give my loyalty,
and take faithfulness and reliability.

Right now I am in this play that is called "My Life".
It is tough. I am the leading character.

And I see so many people enter the stage
say their line and then walk away from the stage,
out of my life, without returning.

I would like so much to be able to yell "CUT!"

And hold everything still for a short second,
hold it still, in my open hands.
To get to know them behind the masks,
what they are hiding..
*
Who wrote the manuscript?

I cannot take anymore. Please, give me just a little break.

Let me walk free
free from these relations with frictions
connections that have grown in under my skin.

I want to cut them off, but I dont dare.
It hurts, are painful and makes me bleed.

Bleed, as my heart that everyone carves in.
Everyone tries to manipulate it, but cant..

The new owner cuts away the last owners strings,
and tie new one around me..
Deeper and harder,
their strings are forced around my heart
that are shrinks and gets smaller.

The scars are the only thing that grow larger..

What do you want from me?

You are only hurting me?!

Leave me alone, in peace.

But you didnt listen, so now I am upset.
I am hurting right back instead.
I thought it would feel better then.

On the contrary..
I cant hurt anyone deliberately.

I cannot and I dont want to.

Despite everything
there is something pushing me forward.
Something that speaks, within me, with my own voice:

FOR YOUR OWN SAKE DO NOT GIVE UP!
NOT FOR ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD!

Perhaps it is my curiosity,
that wonders what it is behind the next corner.

Perhaps it is my pride, that refuse to be broken.

Perhaps it is the hidden flowerknob inside of me,
that are longing for sunlight in this frozen place.

After it has broken through the asphalt
and who still doesnt wither
just because the thought of all the beauty
it will see and feel,
after it has gotten away
from all the coiled plants attempts to push it down.

Perhaps it is Love, Faith and Hope
that was born in me when I saw how life goes on,
If you have a strong will and if you fight.

But one thing is for sure - I will NOT give up!
You who tear and pull will not win.

One day I will break free,
I will tear hard so the roots will be extracted.

I will drop all my withered, dry leafs
and it will grow out new, fresh leafs
filled with nourishments..

My papersheets will give nourishments
to all that hunger and thirst...
I will give them all my warmth that I have stored,
my warehouse are almost filled to the brink.

I will give them all my love and understanding.
And I would like to rock them to sleep, with my song
the song that the the flowering leafs sing
when they are touched by the fresh air -
The Wind of Freedom..

It goes right through my Heart and heals it.
THAT is why I dont give up!

I want to experience all the beauty that awaits me.

Out there.

I am reaching out my hand and feel...
Outside the bars The Wind is so warm and smooth.

I drift away in dreams,
but are yanked back into the cold -
you are tearing and pulling me..

What do you want now then?
I am so tired, so tired, I need peace.

My Wind, I long so for You!

I want You to fill me like the glorious Divinity.
You are the most beautiful music,
the warmest joy, and..
You are mine.

Yes, only mine, my friend.

You lift me higher then I dared dream
that the Wind could carry me..

But, you are not just any Wind, You heal!
You are The Wind of Freedom, and I am Yours...

~ © Jessica Sunnely, 1986 © ~

Warriors Quest - Peace

2008-09-11T03:19:00.015+02:00

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ENDLESS QUEST - ENIGMA

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~ © Warriors Quest - Peace © ~

I spit my red blood on the icy winterland
the gnistering crystals mixed with my heart....
there is no way Im giving up what I love without a fight -
my eyes looked up and met yours, with fire and explosive intensity...

You looked magnificent,
a masterpiece with strength and impressive weapons,
your armour glimmered in the fading light at the field in twiligt zone...

I couldnt hate you

- even though you thretened to steal all that I loved..
Who wouldnt want what I have...
I just realized the value of my dear treasure

I have come to life for you...
you where the enemy all Knights learned to shield from...
the fight was always over one thing -
Love... My love....

*
My chest was filled with a furious scream of pain,
I would give my life for you, and I would fight til the end for us...
And never would you realize what you truly fought against...

*
Moments away from close encounter,
yet you had been in my sight forever

in my inner view and in each breath I had prepared for this -
at night I though of you,
and you had lived in my mind since birth,
you - the reason I had to prepare for battle,
and to become skilled in war..

My enemy..

how come I couldnt feel hate now that I saw you...

In a moments clearness I felt your soul,
and saw the rainbow through my tears..
I couldnt speak your language,
and you wouldnt listen - if I told you the truth...

The desire blinded you..
and I could feel your excitement affecting my pulse
you triumphed with a wicked grin
and mistook my empathy for weakness..

With a roar you descided it was time for attack,
and my muscles positioned
the air, the sky, the land
and my heart was at point blank, all was still..

I saw you move towards me in slowmotion, I was one with you..
I prayed a silent blessing for your soul
and for the foolish act that led us here..

You were too drunken of lust to think clear,
and that was your downfall,
you would not be celebrating victory
in the halls with vikings tonight,
the stones around us would soon cover your strong body
in its full bloom..

It is each of our choise -
in the end, we are the breath between life and death..
no matter who threathens us -
we are either the end or beginning each moment,
what is next..

..as I kneeled to lower my sword I took a deep breath of chi -
and with a cry of desperation
I ended the last verse from the song that was you..

The shock I saw in your wild eyes was sincere,
you had never lost before,
many were the women,
men and kings that had fallen for your will -
and here you found out,
how it felt to be one of them who had to give in..

I lowered my arms as you fell down beside me,
we met in a strong exhale..
the air and the energy faided out,
and we both felt the aggression leave us..
the spirits of battle stood around us
as we met without weapons between us,
and I could hear you speak words in a strange language,
but the meaning was clear,
arent all warriors One in those moments..
there is only different angles of truth..

Your shivering hands helt up a medallion around your neck,
you tried to speak
and as your blood met mine on the snowwhite crystals,
my hand met yours..

Perhaps I had given you peace as well...
but no death would separate us,
you would live on in my mind forever,
just as you always had been in me..

I had fought you since I learned to hold a sword,
in each movement during practise..
I couldnt feel any triumph in this victorious moment,
all I felt was sorrow..

Why was this necessary, why..
you spilled a lifetime within a single moment..

Instead of celebration, we would spend this night in contemplation
thank your spirit for the sad lesson you forced on us
with your attempted occupation.

How can a festive occantion follow upon a lifes sacrifice,
as the warriors quest turns out to be.

Each day carries its gold, and moments of tears as long as we live -
but it is those that only seek the glitter that will cry the most..

I will raise my glass for our meeting, and for your loved ones,
they lost you long ago.. and have missed you for an eternity..

~ © Jessica Sunnely, December 23 2007 © ~

To My Father

2007-01-18T05:47:00.001+01:00

WALKING IN THE AIR - NIGHTWISH

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~ To my Father ~

You should have been my knight

in shining armour

a loving father

that protected me from harm

Like a Don Quijote

you fought with wild rage

a hopeless mental battle

against your inner demons

You should have had time with me

but in the chaos and mess

there wherent enough love

to heal all the bleading wounds

You should have saved me

rescued me from evil

but it was I who chased you

after conversations that never came

I your daughter

You my father

so close in bloodline

but parted for eons of time

I always looked for you

your eyes your hand

as quickly as we met

you separated us

Anger sorrow and frustration

in the childish heart

we both got to share

that never grew together

The poison in your body

killed the seed to the future

suffocated love before midsummer

you never saw the flowers bloom

Wish I would have known you more

that we where both grown up

but we where both too young

the day you passed away

I found your last message

a written letter in my toybox

and despite all these years with tears

I LOVE YOU TOO!!

- in memory of my father -

1986

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Masters of Life, Love & Light

2007-01-02T08:21:00.005+01:00

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SOMEDAY - CLOË AGNEW

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~ Novice ~

Crash - so painful that your heart almost breaks

when everythings go wrong we lose hope and faith

and you want to scream and cry tears of sorrow

when pain inside digs furrows deep into horror

the loneliness and regrets scratches in your chest

when darkness & anxiety wont give you needed rest

then you must remember that there is a cure for pain

friends warmths sings hope; that nothing is in vain

to share our incapabilities is a big step for us both

lets stop see each others as a threat, open up to hope

please, help me - reach out your hand for a little while

considerations seed nurtures friendship mile after mile

noone of us can stop the hardships destined in life

sad songs in all of us, tunes sharp & deep as a knife

why play games, pretend, rule as an unmoved King

a false crowns burden will never give us our wings

in the school of life we'll all go to the same class

knowledge and insights, we will all do the maths

comradery helps us realize both puzzle and riddle

that were all going through the hard lexures given

love will teach us most, big investment with interest

relationships, big challenging examin without a rest

in different levels, but studies in the same themes

without shortcuts - skipping class will give you D's

sometimes in life we will meet a techer in each other

then we hopefully learn, teach and give to one another

meetings, when we have been loaned someone elses time

a treasure given that's an invaluable gift, very very fine

the insights we are learning will last in mind forever

thats why all the momentens in life is a holy endeavour

the seasons of development is gonna shift over the years

and experience carve wrinkles of wisdom between your ears

places, here & there shapes our character individually

step by step, every day in our unique career, spiritually

on the examination - we will finally get our doctors degree

at your service: Masters of Life, offers mankind help for free

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Free Spirits

2007-01-02T00:08:00.006+01:00

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KISSING - BLISS
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FREE SPIRITS

Suggestive beating, my pulse excited,
a yearning drives me within a hurry!
A muffled desire makes my blood pulsate
in dark red waves of passion...

My entire body is ridden by electricity, loaded, tense..
Im on the edge of my limits, holding back, controlled..
I feel my pulse escalate, urged, Im wild - filled with viability...

My eyes narrow, I'm gazing, trying to focus,
I light up by the vision of you..
In the distance I see my destination,
your mysterious figure is glimmering in the glade...

In my mind
the images of landscapes are shifting,
where our spirits are flying high above,
where we play and measure our forces through space,
between heaven and earth, shape-shifting, transforming,
light as a butterfly, strong as a panther, wild as a dragon...

Determined, with a shrewd smile, virile,
splendid and proud - I'm coming closer to you...

Im slowly breathing in the fragrances
from the virgin, primeval forest around me..
Im walking on a moist, warm earth...

Shimmering ... from the descending sunset
long read rays of firelight, sunlight, all is golden,
and so are your beautiful face in front of me..
I rejoyce to meet you, with respect and love.

Your penetrating eyes read my mind,
I know that you see me even before I can reach you...

Scrutinizing gazing at me, filled with wisdom and awareness,
Your sixth sence sees right through my barriers,
moves flexible over all obstacles..

I reveal myself to you, undress til Im naked,
Im standing here bare in front of you..
I hand myself over to our soulmeeting..
And that is how we meet each other,
as the twilight meets the night and the stars..

A warrior-soul with a magnificent charisma..
Strength, tenderness, with a power so radiatingly natural...

Harmony in yin and yang, filled with love, that doesn't shy away.
Im caught in your grip, challenged, smiling back and invite you in,
I am also glowing, hot, filled with lust, of life... your presence...

Our energies collide, greets each other, fumbles around and play tag.
Where hiding, finding each other in a joyful recognicion, eagerness..
Then finally, we take off, and lift over the trees, forward, floating...

Together our totem-animals are flying up to freedom and liberty,
High clear air meets us at the mountains,
as we take speed over the steep,
we are rising up,
storming over the ocean,
into the lightning clouds...

Tickeling, glittering raindiamonds
fall down on our wings from heaven above..
The waves under whips up splashes of drops
and foaming ice cold sea that refreshes us.

I laugh happily, totally absorbed by being alive!
In my chest a wild scream is growing and bubbles out of me...

I shout myself hoarse against ocean and winds, to earth and to you,
and you reply, together we tune up in a hymn, a mantra..
Our holy words of ancient cult, beyond earthy languages,
we sing... in harmony, in unison...

You dive bold down towards me
and with horror and delight I fend you off..
We are up to mischief on the winds, playing around
while the nightsky is filling up heaven
with northern lights as a glitzy dragontail...

The sunstorms sparkles in violet, koboltblue,
turquoise and deepgreen nuances..

The fireworks of nature accompany our dance,
embelish chrysals in your beautiful eyes..

And there it is, the most precious gift there is -
Your wonderful Soul...
that reveils itself in the glance of your eyes..
your eyes that meets mine...

While we travel above the earth,
small seeds are falling down on the ground,
they're spreaded from our wings..
like angels dust, over all beings down there..

Sinking in and reawakes a hint..
slumbering beings inner longing,
and they stop, stumbles, and in the fall -
looking up, at the sky, looking for heaven..

Entice to try out the first jump,
unsteady they try out their own wings..

The search can begin,
in their journey after insights
an final homecoming...

We return from our journey,
and go down to our campfires,
the dragons deep fairytale forests..

Gliding down between the high trees
meeting the bog, and the small forest lake
with its deep mysterious water...

Landing softly back into our earthly bodies,
the holy temple for our souls here on earth...

I wake up from deep meditation,
and once again I meet your thoughtful look...

I smile at you.. filled with joy,
of fellowship, presence, clearsight...

Know now that you understand,
and without words - know, see, what Im feeling...

I reach towards you, and gently you help me to rise up..
With your hand in mine we take turns to be guides
on this path, as pilgrims..

This time with soft barefoot steps
over our blooming, flourishing Mother Earth...

© copyright Jess
~ September 2006 ~

Kindred Spirits

2006-09-27T04:50:00.006+02:00

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WILD ANGEL - Joshua Kadison

KINDRED SPIRITS

If only I could have been there when you where hurt
If only I could have been your angel, guarding you

No one should have to be born into pain and suffering
Standing alone, exposed to the cruelty of the world

If I could have stood between you and the hand that hit you
Who took away your pure innocence and murdered your trust

All these nights when you shivered and cried yourself to sleep
When the light in you faded from the darkness around you

I wanna be the warm hand that tenderly wipes your tears away
The voice that whispers in your ear, that the fairytale is true

That life is about to begin soon, when you have grown stronger
Stronger then anybody else since you've been broken down

That you are very special that has had a very hard trial
That it is an uniqe soul that looks out through your eyes

That your view on the world and your insights are a gift
That you have been given a shining diamond in your heart

You are the fairytale, the gift, the strength and the answer
Thats the thing about veterans that suffers the battle of life

The true heroes are the ones that stand tall through the storm
Who where lost but eventually found themselves and the truth

Guides, adventurers, mountainclimbers, divers, teachers
All of that and an infinity of possibilities in you

Don't get burned by your own force and your will to change
Even though you feel responsibility and love for mankind

Sometimes its hard to reach out for help and be vulnerable
When you learned yourself to walk, forced to grow up fast

But now I stand here, I know, I walked the same path as you
Was it you I whispered to when I was shivering in the dark

How remarkable, two souls fought the same battle and won
I want to let my shield down and unveil myself for you

Namaste! I greet you with respect my friend, kindred spirit
The divine in me greets and honours the divine in you!

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Thank you my dear friend Dave,
for helping me translate!

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Code of Chivalry

2006-09-20T15:41:00.000+02:00

Code of Chivalry:

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Live ones life so that it is worthy of respect and honour.

Live for freedom, justice and all that is good.

Destroy evil in all of its monstrous forms.

Fight with honour.

Never attack an unarmed foe.

Never attack from behind.

Obey the law.

Administer justice.

Defend the weak.

Protect the innocent.

Avenge the wronged.

Respect life and freedom.

Show respect to authority.

Die with honour and valor.

Always maintaine one's principles.

Exhibit selfcontrol.

Always keep one's word of honour.

Exhibit Courage in word and deed.

Never betray a confidence or comrade.

Never abandon a friend, ally, or noble cause.

Loyalty to one's friends and those who lay their trust in thee.

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.·:¨:·. Starseed .·:¨:·.

2006-09-19T05:03:00.001+02:00

LOVES DEVINE - Seal

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This poem is for the baby I lost 2006

You twinkled on my dark sky
as a sparkling little starseed

radiating glimps from heaven
that took my breath away

fascinated, delighted, in respect
of you, vibrating growing life

for a moment, you where here
showed me the meaning of life
before you went back to heaven

but I will always carry you with me
my belowed little baby
in my heart

and perhaps
in the future
we'll meet again

and smile at each other
with radiating sparkling eyes